Words of a Heart In Love

I must realize and accept that he; if intrested in me, will not take the step I wish he took. I can’t put myself out there anymore than I have so far. My last visit with him was last week again due to a clogged ear. I sent him this message on tuesday and I havent heard back from him although I went to the office this Monday to leave a paper in the office with the recepcionist for him, he still has yet to send the order for the test. Not like him he usually does everything fast for me. 

The message I sent him when i left the office was this one “Thank You!!! You are so awesome in so many ways “his Name”!!! If only I would’ve ran into you sooner! I’m just happy that I did when I did although it took a car accident ;0( Good night love *Praying hands, Heart, Kissing emoji” Maybe that was too much because he has been radio silent for 9 day now *Tear*. Not sure what to do or say to him now. I’m going to give him two weeks before I reach out to the office to ask why I havent gotten the referral yet. I hope it is just that he is busy and nothing more.

Needless to say I am missing him, I’M SUPER SAD and I’m loosing my shit, reasons why I’ve been unable to blog, I’m trying to find acceptance and hold back the pain, dissapointment, etc and all that comes with having to let go (if im actually going to do so) of something your hear desires so badly :0(